The Best

I have been PORING over volumes of early childhood education this past month as I construct a home pre-k program for Jonas.

I read the the classic talk "In His Steps" by President Benson today (which I have heard quoted numerous times but never read from start to finish) and I have a complete outline of the most important things I need to do and teach Jonas.

The gospel is the BEST source.

http://speeches.byu.edu/?act=viewitem&id=89

Also, loved this talk, "Tell Me the Stories of Jesus" by Elder Neil A. Anderson:
http://www.lds.org/general-conference/2010/04/tell-me-the-stories-of-jesus?lang=eng

Comfort

I've been thinking lately about how the only thing I ever need to worry about is trying to be righteous (which granted is a lot to worry about in and of itself!)

There is so much comfort in that knowledge for me.

I don't need to worry that my body still can't seem to pass all the tissue it needs to.

I don't need to worry about the things people do and say that directly or indirectly hurt my feelings.

I don't need to worry about my children growing up in a world where basic liberties and rights are questioned and evil growing more bold and more rampant.

I don't need to worry about the pestilence, famines, wars and desolations that will precede Christ's Second Coming.

I only need to try to follow Jesus Christ's example.

That's it.

I only need to worry about living in a way that allows me to be attuned to the Holy Ghost so Heavenly Father can lead and direct my life. Because my Heavenly Father takes care of me. He is a merciful, patient and gentle teacher. And because Jesus Christ has atoned for my sins, I can repent when I make a mistake and strive to be a little better everyday.

Life is simple and infinitely beautiful with that perspective.

This pregnancy

has taken an unexpected turn and I've miscarried (or rather I think I am still miscarrying).

Matt and I are of course disappointed but we've mostly felt peace and comfort. Heavenly Father is watching over us. We don't need anything right now except perhaps a little space to process things.

And since the word about the pregnancy has spread out beyond the immediate family members and close friends we told (as exciting news always does), maybe people can tell those same people they've told about the pregnancy about the miscarriage so I don't have to answer their questions about the pregnancy or miscarriage (because I would really hate to turn into a puddle at church or bumping into an extended family member).

Nature Boy

Cute pictures from almost a year ago I never got around to posting!